Hey guys! I know that its been awhile since I've updated and I apologize. Internet access is hard to come by at this point and it's also not free anymore. But it's Saturday April 19th now and I have less than a month until I'm back in the States! I can't believe it...it's all gone by so fast. But enough of the cheesy reflections, I know you all really want to know what I'm up to at the moment.
I'm now on the final portion of my trip-the scary Independent Study Project portion. For those of you who don't know this is when each of the students in my group choose a topic of whatever they choose, and they go off to wherever they want to in South Africa to research that topic for a few weeks, and then they have to write at a minimum, a 40 page report about it. So, right now I am all by myself (not really, I'm just not with any of the other students) in a small town called Eshowe working with a restorative justice organization (they try to do rehabilitative work with prisoners within the prisons) known as Phoenix Zululand.
The focus for my specific project is the creative arts as a way of healing. Phoenix has an "art as a way of healing" program that they implement within the prisons, and I'm trying to research how the art that the prisoners create is helping these prisoners to express their emotions, express themselves, etc. There is also a drama program that Phoenix holds and I'm trying to incorporate this as well within my project. Phoenix is giving me a lot of responsibility; they gave me piles and piles and more piles of artwork to analyze that various prisoners have created so that I can see what themes seem to be coming up and what details about various aspects of the prisoner's lives are being conveyed. They also want me to talk to some of the art facilitators about some of the issues I'm finding and how the art program can be improved.
This is an extremely special project for me as I'm considering going into art therapy. And not only that, but because I have such a passion for the arts (especially music and drama, as many of you know) I'm getting the opportunity to really prove to people how the creative arts mean so much more to so many people than simply a form of entertainment or something pretty to look at.
Next week I'm getting the opportunity to go into the women's prison here in Eshowe to interview them about a very successful art project that they took part in, in which they took magazine photos and created a collage about their lives. Just looking at them I was extremely moved by what these women were able to create. Through these collages stories are told of abuse, drugs, but also of hope and a desire to start a new life.
I'm also living with a former inmate of Eshowe prison named Tembalethu. She's a super awesome woman and her and I have had some amazing conversations about why she was in prison, about how she realized all the people she hurt and how prison helped her to realize that she could no longer continue with a life of stealing from other people-not just because prison was such an awful place which it was and still is, but because of the damage it did to others. I love her. She now works with Phoenix going into the prisons facilitating discussions with inmates about different issues. We also talked about the issue of violent offenders and how prison is really the only place for them to go as they can't be allowed to stay in society. Phoenix might say otherwise, but she wouldn't agree, and I for right don't either. That's another tricky issue that people have yet to solve.
I'd like to share a quick story of someone I already interviewed who is now an ex-inmate living in a township here in Eshowe. As I was looking through the artwork I saw a picture that she and another woman drew that had to do with many of their life experiences. From this picture they wrote a play and performed it in the prison with Phoenix's drama program. I went to interview this woman about the play she performed and how it helped her as a person, and I found out that she is now living in a shack, similar to those of the shack settlements I've talked about a few times in previous entries. She has no bed, hardly any clothes, her father is crippled, she ran away from home when she was young because of abuse, and now she has a baby and relies on money from friends to make it day by day. She cried during the interview.
This is another forgotten person of South Africa-a woman who has faced severe hardship through no fault of her own, and now she is constantly made fun of by fellow neighbors for being a former prisoner. She is now trying desperately hard to feed her sick baby and mentioned that although she would have liked to take her drama talents further, all of her dreams have been "shattered...they were just dreams. I cry a lot now." In her words. She mentioned how life is harder now than it was even before she got into prison.
There are people living like this all over South Africa, and it explains my love-hate relationship with this country. Ever since then I've been rethinking my role as well as the role of the rest of the world's role in helping people like this woman. I'm beginning to think that because so much of it is government related there's really not much an ordinary person can do except for donate money every now and then. I am now even more confused about what I want to do with my life than I was before I left for South Africa.
But on a lighter note, Eshowe reminds a lot of small suburbs or towns back in Minnesota. It has a peaceful, friendly ambiance to it, and it makes me miss home more and more. I like being here more and more because it does remind me so much of home. But listening to all these stories of these prisoners has made me realize how lucky and blessed I am to have supportive family and friends, as so many of the people I've been meeting lately have neither. I'll be coming back home as I said in less than a month, to see all of you whom I love so much, and I have to say quite frankly that I am very excited :)
Lastly, yesterday that woman whom I interviewed got a chance to take her baby to the doctor with the money that the 3 of us (another student, the woman I'm living with, and I) gave her during the interview and now her baby's asthma has been treated and is doing very well. One of the Phoenix members came up with an idea of giving her things to sell so that she can start her own business and make some immediate income. Maybe things will start to look up for her now.